Haunted...

Was visited in my dreams last night by folks from my past - first, my daddy, who was in a hospital in SLC, and me and a few other family members went to visit him.  (I had left in such a hurry, I was still in my nightgown.)  All the times we visited, he never woke up.  They last time, when we got to the door, the other family members turned and ran back to the car, so I had to go in on my own...

All the while I was there, I was worried about running into an old ex (who currently lives in SLC, and is a multi-millionaire in real life.)

Dreams can be so telling - right now I'm missing my past.  Not only the people in it, but the carefree life of not having to worry about things like poor health and money (or the lack of it.)  Even though I know that ex and I would not have worked - there are times that I wonder what it would be like to have a life free from the worries of money.

Got all kinds of bad news yesterday - Hubby was told by his bosses that there won't be any place in Utah for him any time soon, unless he want's to relocate to Layton.  It was a blow because we were both counting on moving back home this year.  He applied for a couple of other jobs while we were home last weekend, but his age is a big strike against him...

Also, the land-lords at the place where we are living got some kind of new software to run the company, which requires surprise inspections.  I feel like they are trying to get rid of us, and that this is just another move in that direction.  Just more pressure and more to worry about...

Poverty is not fun.  I want to go home.  :-(

Amen.  But right now I just want to go cry for my daddy.