Bah Humbug.

More than a little bit down today - I hope the neighborhoods are a lot friendlier out of state.

 I sent an email to my book club this week saying how much I would miss them, and got ...not one response.  Not one.

And I told my bishop today that he should start thinking of replacing me, and he said 'oh yeah, we're already on that."   ...my visiting teaching partner only cares about getting the job done before I leave.

*Sigh*  not feeling much love around here.

Meanwhile, the kids are complaining about all the books I have and how heavy they are...  (Just wait till I box up all the scrapbook paper in the basement!  I'm sure there are at least 4 trees down there!)

...On the upside, Black Friday weekend is over, and I have survived.  We did have a few minor incidents, but no one went to the hospital or to jail, so I guess it was a success.

My daughter has been helping in my department the last couple of days - I can see her slipping easily into my job - she's quicker, brighter, and cuter - no one will ever miss me.

Life is great.

Starting to count the hours, minutes, seconds...

 Everyone around us is all lit up for Christmas already.  

Don't know how much decorating we'll do around here - hubby won't be home to take it down.  (When hubby goes to Vegas, he stays in Vegas.)

Signing off now, I'm depressing myself just reading through this.

Later.

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Chaos.

It's getting pretty deep here now, the packing to move has begun in earnest.
Hubby has very few days left to do what he can (me too!)  So we've been doing as much as possible every spare minute.

Instead of the sparkling Christmas decorations that usually by now are creeping into place, the house is full of cardboard boxes and clutter.
It's a necessary evil, but it's giving me claustrophobic attacks.

I've been feeling so positive and excited for the change, but this week the old monster FEAR has reared his ugly head.  I've been thinking about all the things that could go wrong, (and probably will, because let's face it - this is US!  When have things ever gone smoothly for us?)

My biggest concern is for my daughters.  I can't leave here until I know they will be safe and secure without us.  ...And second, that we'll be able to afford a decent place, in a safe neighborhood.
(Or will we end up in a cardboard box under a bridge?  I have too much stuff for that!)

Anxiety.

Meanwhile, my daughter's wallet went missing several weeks ago.  We have been so positive that it was in this house somewhere, but all efforts to find it have failed.
She checked her bank statement today, and found that her debit card has been used this week.
So, apparently, we were wrong.

She stopped all future payments, and will go get all her documents replaced tomorrow, but it has left her feeling sick and violated.  Poor baby, some of life's realities are ugly ones.

One happy note to the day today, we spent the evening at my son's house, celebrating the birthday of his youngest daughter.  She is such a fun child - filled with life and energy and imagination.

We gave her the DVD Brave,  a Merida Barbie doll to go with it - and a cute little outfit.  As soon as she opened them, she ran to try on the clothes, (she looked adorable,) while her dad popped in the movie.
It was fun to see her so excited, - and Jeff's children never forget to say "thank you" or show their gratitude, which I love.

I should be sleeping - went to bed early and exhausted, but stress, or something like unto it, has crept into my brain to destroy my peace.

It's a work day tomorrow, and much to do before I go, so I really must give it another try.

Sigh.
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AWOL

Haven't been around much lately, but that is because my world has gone topsy-turvy...

Hubby finally got his store - so we are moving.  To North Las Vegas.
It's been crazy around here - it's the busiest time for me at work, so having to sort through and pack - and try to think ahead to the holidays is pretty stressful.

Hubby and I will be going down the week before Christmas to look for a place to live.  We will come back for Christmas here - then we are gone.

The girls are going to try to keep the house up and running - probably take on a room mate or two.
We'll see how that works out...

Yesterday, we had a surprise snow storm!  It continued through the night, so we have about a foot of the icky white stuff on the lawn today.

Can't get to the desert soon enough!

Probably won't be around much until next year - so, Happy Holidays!
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